Life by India Tungate

I was able to get a few things done on my To Do list. One of those items was to start working on cleaning out our laundry room which has became a huge messy storage area. My husband plans to work on it and make a much more oraganized storage area along with a walk in closet which I'm excited about. 

I was able to go through every single box and get rid of a bunch of things we don't need. I noticed I was becoming a pack rat and hung on to anything I thought I might use one day. If I wasn't using it now, it got tossed. It was hard to do but with the baby on the way, I was able to get rid of a lot. 

I also was able to get a few things for out baby shower. It's always best to have someone else throw the shower for you but you don't have to miss out on all the fun. Our theme is Vintage Cars, since Dad is a Mechanic and loves cars and I love anything vintage. 

My cousin Ashley is throwing us the shower and her and I went out searching for ideas. At Hobby lobby we managed to find 4 "fake" old signs that were neat and a huge metal 'K' for my baby boy. I can't wait to use all of the things for his room as well. 

How Far Along: 21 Weeks

Stretch Marks: None 😀 I really hope it stays that way!  

Maternity Clothes: I am still wearing the two pair of pants I have left that for he but when I sit I have to unbutton them. I wore my first pair of maternity shorts over the weekend and was in heaven! They were so comfortable. 

Sleep: I've been sleeping good. I have woke up a few hours before my alarm goes off for the past few days and am not sure why. I'm still able to hold my pee until morning time. 

Best Moment This Week: Getting a chance to work on our Goals with my husband. It's nice to set a timeline and make a list of everything that needs to be done around the house and prepared before our little bundle of joy gets here. 

Worst Moment This Week: I've been super tired since Friday. I don't know what it is because I have been very energized my whole pregnancy. 

Miss Anything: Coffee! 

Movement: Lots of movement from my baby boy. I wish he would move even more, I love knowing he is doing ok in there. 

Cravings: Sweet Tea, Cereal, and Coffee.

Queasy or Sick: None 

Have You Started To Show Yet: Oh yes and the line on my stomach is beginning to darken too. 

Gender: Boy

Belly Button In or Out? It's still inside. 

Wedding Rings On or Off? On

Happy or Moody Most of the Time: I'm happy but just tired. 

Looking Forward To: Getting our to do list completed!!!! 

Of course the first thought is having a family member help out. I went through the list of family members and named off their schedules but no one is able to watch our child during a full work week. 

Then I thought about friends that I trust with my child. There is only a handful and all of my friends and husband's friends are hard workers like us. That marks friends off of the list. 

Then we thought about day care, which I have nothing against a daycare, but the thought gave me chills. If my child was a little older, I wouldn't care to take him to daycare for the social aspect and the learning expierence. Most daycares have a pre-school program and even Kindergarden. But my child will be a newborn. 

Does it make me selfish if I want to be the person who raises my child? I don't want just anyone taking care of him for the first year of his life, especially since I plan to breast feed and pump. It brings tears to my eyes thinking about leaving him and he's not even here yet. 

Not to mention the cost of daycare which is outrageous these days. I couldn't help but wonder if it would just save money if I stayed home with him? Would that be the best answer for us financially. In the world today, most families have to have two incomes to make it by. That is how it has always been for my husband and I. 

I actually bring home more money than he does at the moment. Since he is still working his way up the latter at his career, it sometimes takes a slower process. I have room to move up as well but is this the career I really want? In my heart, I would love to stay home with my son. Being a mother is all I've ever wanted and is the reason why I have worked so hard in the past and present. 

Ever since I was 16 years old, I have worked. I saved my money, I paid my bills, I even helped my mom with groceries or home needs while living with her. I went to college and I busted my butt to graduate. Working is all I've ever known. What would I do if I didn't have a job?!? A part of me feels like I might go crazy. 

There's so many questions that come with this decision which of course makes it harder to choose the right answers. The most important question of all and is really the one that should overrule all of the others: "What will be the best choice for my son?" 

With that answer the first thing that comes to mind is being a stay at home mother. Being able to feed him when needed, spend time with him, teach him everything, and simply just take care of him is what is needed the most. 

What about money? Is there going to be enough income coming in to cover for our bills, food, and home needs? Can I get a job where I work from home?

There is so much stress that comes with either way I choose to go and I am still in the struggle of making a decision on this. The best tip I can give is to think of what is best for your child and your family, that should lead you to the right decision. That is what I am trying to figure out myself. I'll keep you all posted on what I end up choosing and of course, how it all works out. 😊