Of course the first thought is having a family member help out. I went through the list of family members and named off their schedules but no one is able to watch our child during a full work week. 

Then I thought about friends that I trust with my child. There is only a handful and all of my friends and husband's friends are hard workers like us. That marks friends off of the list. 

Then we thought about day care, which I have nothing against a daycare, but the thought gave me chills. If my child was a little older, I wouldn't care to take him to daycare for the social aspect and the learning expierence. Most daycares have a pre-school program and even Kindergarden. But my child will be a newborn. 

Does it make me selfish if I want to be the person who raises my child? I don't want just anyone taking care of him for the first year of his life, especially since I plan to breast feed and pump. It brings tears to my eyes thinking about leaving him and he's not even here yet. 

Not to mention the cost of daycare which is outrageous these days. I couldn't help but wonder if it would just save money if I stayed home with him? Would that be the best answer for us financially. In the world today, most families have to have two incomes to make it by. That is how it has always been for my husband and I. 

I actually bring home more money than he does at the moment. Since he is still working his way up the latter at his career, it sometimes takes a slower process. I have room to move up as well but is this the career I really want? In my heart, I would love to stay home with my son. Being a mother is all I've ever wanted and is the reason why I have worked so hard in the past and present. 

Ever since I was 16 years old, I have worked. I saved my money, I paid my bills, I even helped my mom with groceries or home needs while living with her. I went to college and I busted my butt to graduate. Working is all I've ever known. What would I do if I didn't have a job?!? A part of me feels like I might go crazy. 

There's so many questions that come with this decision which of course makes it harder to choose the right answers. The most important question of all and is really the one that should overrule all of the others: "What will be the best choice for my son?" 

With that answer the first thing that comes to mind is being a stay at home mother. Being able to feed him when needed, spend time with him, teach him everything, and simply just take care of him is what is needed the most. 

What about money? Is there going to be enough income coming in to cover for our bills, food, and home needs? Can I get a job where I work from home?

There is so much stress that comes with either way I choose to go and I am still in the struggle of making a decision on this. The best tip I can give is to think of what is best for your child and your family, that should lead you to the right decision. That is what I am trying to figure out myself. I'll keep you all posted on what I end up choosing and of course, how it all works out. 😊